Monday, December 22, 2008

Out of the mouths of babes

This Christmas we, like many, are having a toned down Christmas. Yes, partly due to the economy but also because it has really struck me this year that we don't really need anything. We have food, clothes, a house, family, friends, and then some. What do we really need? We will get a boys a gift from us and one from Santa but no over the top stuff.

I read an article in the paper the weekend after Thanksgiving about a woman who bragged about missing her family's Thanksgiving dinner to spend it in line at Best Buy. Apparently she wasn't going to be able to spend the usual $4,000 (yep, you read that right) on her kids this year due to her tight budget so could ONLY spend a measly $1,500 and didn't want her poor kids to feel short changed. Did she really think that spending the holiday camped on a sidewalk outside an electronics superstore was more important than sharing a holiday meal with family and friends? Call me crazy but doesn't it seem pretty obvious that is not the lesson you want to teach your kids?

This article prompted us to talk to the boys about what is Christmas. They were quick to answer "It's Jesus' birthday!" Parental sigh of relief...they didn't answer it is when Santa comes. We talked about how some kids don't have homes or toys or clothes. This was hit home a bit more when Luke's Kindergarten class "adopted" a foster child through a local charity organization. They learned his name was Chandlir, age 8, in foster care and all he wanted for Christmas was a Spiderman toy, and (gulp) a toothbrush, towel, warm clothes, and suitcase of his own. Yowsey. All the stuff in the world and he wants a toothbrush. How's that for some much needed perpsective.

So a couple weeks ago at dinner one night we asked Luke what he wanted for Christmas. He looked up towards the ceiling to think. After maybe 20 seconds of serious thought said, and I quote here: "I don't think I really need anything."

Wow I love that boy.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Forgive and forget?

The holidays always bring about soul searching. My parents will be glad to know that I finally have been putting that philosophy degree to use. :-) The topic: forgiveness. Can one forgive without condoning what happened? What if the person doesn't see what they did as wrong or doesn't want to accept any responsibility for the situation, can they still be forgiven?

On a suggestion, I listened a sermon from Dan Southerland from Westside Family Church. The four points he made really made sense:
1) Forgiveness is not based on merit.
2) Forgiveness is not based on apology.
3) Forgiveness is not based on repentance.
4) Forgiveness is a choice based on grace.

Forgiveness is foremost an internal matter. It is choosing to let go the feelings of being wronged. Sounds easy but this can be especially difficult when there is no apology or repentance, however forgiveness has little to do with the other person but rather is something you do for yourself. It helps you move on and just maybe makes a deposit in your karma account.

Does this mean if we forgive that we condone? This is where I struggled most and was glad to learn the answer is no, forgiving is not condoning. In fact, you can only forgive because you felt the action was wrong.

This logic leads to the next question: If we forgive, do we just move on like nothing happened? Unfortunately, forgiveness and reconciliation are not the same. Reconciliation means restoring the relationship and involves two parts: 1) forgiveness and 2) penance. You can forgive someone but if they don't feel they did anything wrong or apologize, you can't reconcile. Bottomline, you can only get there halfway by yourself.

Want some further reading: Mayo Clinic on Forgiveness

Whoa, pretty heavy topic for a Monday. Where's Dirty Dancing when you need it?

Friday, November 7, 2008

Size does matter

It is cold and dreary but I am happy as can be. As of today, I have officially hit weight loss of 20 pounds! Hooray!!! This puts me at a weight I haven't seen since...well, a long time. Freshman year in college maybe?

Yes, I know it is not the number of pounds that matters but the change in size and I have had a significant change in that area as well. However, there is still something uplifting about seeing THAT number on the scale...as wrong as it is.

I have grown to really love my workouts. It is MY private time -- I find I get a sense of calm just by entering the health club and smelling the combination of aromatheraphy from the spa, chlorine from the pool, sanitizer from the cario machines, and brewing coffee from the cafe. And I don't care whatsoever how silly a 40-year old mother of two may look running full throttle interval sprints around the track. Feel free to mock me if you can catch me. Ah I love it all.

Unfortunately, the goal of "Linda Hamilton Terminator Arms" is still a work in progress. Think I may need to modify that goal to something a bit more realisitc since I don't have six hours a day to train or a personal chef to cook the food needed for that extreme. However, a determined gal can still try.

Well, I am off for now. There is an arc trainer and some weights calling my name and Fergalicious is queued up on my Shuffle...

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Emainia

I had an issue with my website requiring me to contact tech support. Long story short, I wondered why I wasn't getting a response and it turns out they were emailing me using one of my email accounts I don't check very often.

This got me thinking...how many do I have?
1) jillweb.com - this is my main personal email address.
2) vials.com - work email address.
3) gmail.com - got this when gmail first launched; now use for managing AdWords.
4) hotmail.com - got back in 1998 when we moved to LA.
5) att.net - used for managing our AT&T UVerse DVR via computer (pretty slick).

Think that is enough?

Monday, October 27, 2008

Life is Good


Sat down to fold some laundry this weekend, turned on the television, browsed the listings and VOILA...Marie Antionette had just started. Caught it in time to hear Bow Wow Wow and see the chucks.

Life is good.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Just breathe

Everyone has crazy days however it seems that adding children to the mix increases the craziness exponentially. Those of you with kids know what I am talking about. Let me just share the past 36 hours:

Get home late from airport Sunday night. Great trip but everyone exhausted.
Wow, house is hot and stuffy after 8 days closed up. Turn on A/C.
Carry kids from car to bed.
Unload suitcases from car (I swear they grew on the trip home).
Do quick inventory of food in house for kids' morning breakfast.
Send Sean to store for milk and breakfast food.
Get essentials needed for morning in laundry (Jake's blankie and kids' hoodies - airplane germs - yuk).
Pack Jake's bag for daycare Monday (clean sheets and blanket).
Find Luke's backpack and pack for school.
Lay out kids clothes for school.
Move wet clothes from washer to dryer.
Shower, put on PJs, fall into bed (sigh).
Wake up Monday morning - late.
Thank Sean for cup of coffee (what a guy).
Sean feeds boys breakfast (this guy's a keeper).
Shower and dress for work.
Tell kids to hurry as we are late.
Locate laptop and all cords, etc. Where did I put them?
Put Luke in shower.
No time to do hair…it’s a ponytail day.
Find Jake.
Get Luke out of shower and order into school clothes quickly.
Order Jake into shower.
Ask Jake if he forgot to wear his listening ears.
Put Jake into shower and pass Jake off to Sean.
Tell Luke to got put on his shoes.
Wait…where are my shoes?
Grab laptop, briefcase, cell phone. Where’s my purse? Right…forgot didn’t have purse on vacation so no purse is packed.
Throw wallet and chapstick in briefcase…that will be my purse today.
Hurry to car, get Luke buckled in and drive to school.
Drop Luke off at school and head to work.
Get to work….shipping container arrived while we were gone so must unload it ASAP or we will get a late fee.
Pull box from truck, put on pallet. Repeat 432 times.
Forgot to bring lunch. Forage in office freezer for food.
Pull box from truck, put on pallet. Repeat 589 times.
Check and answer work emails.
Verify server logs and backups.
Remember tomorrow is Luke’s snack day. Must remember 19 snacks!
Run inventory reports to prepare for morning inventory count.
Pack up and leave office.
Call Sean to see if he can pick up kids so I can go to grocery store.
Go to grocery store…make mental menu on the fly and purchase week’s groceries.
Decide grapes would be a great healthy snack for Luke’s class.
Get home and unload groceries.
Hug kids and kiss Sean.
Make dinner while kids play in backyard.
Put dinner in oven and read books to Jake on front porch while Luke rides bike.
Put dinner on table. Sit down with family, say a prayer and eat. Breathe.
Sean starts dishes.
Wash and cut up bunches of grapes and make 19 baggies of grapes for snacks. Maybe this wasn't such a good choice?
Run upstairs, unpack kids clothes from suitcases and start kids laundry.
Read stack of notices, newsletters, notes from kids’ schools.
Holy crud – tomorrow is picture day at Jake’s school!!
Herd Luke and Jake upstairs for homework. Luke has lots from vacation.
Sean heads out to mow lawn.
Get Luke started on homework.
Rummage through Jake’s clothes to find something for fall that FITS.
Get Luke started on next assignment.
Curse in my head that he has nothing that fits.
Try some of Luke’s clothes on Jake to find something that fits.
Start Luke on next assignment.
Explain to Jake that no, 3 year olds don’t have homework.
Find shirt and pants that fits Jake.
Make up homework for Jake so he stops crying about not having homework.
Realize Jake has no decent shoes for photos. Only his beat up Nikes and Crocs.
Admit I am a bad mother for not having decent shoes for my child.
Justify that tan Crocs will look just great in school photo.
Read notes from school in Luke's backpack.
Make mental note Luke's teacher conference is Oct. 16 at 5:20pm.
Realize I will undoubtedly forget the above.
Tell Jake we will read book after we are ready for bed.
Hug Luke for doing all his homework.
Pack Luke’s homework folder in backpack.
Lay out clothes for Luke.
Get kids in pajamas.
Tell Jake NO, he can't go "commando" to bed (commando = no undies).
Herd kids to brush their teeth.
Sean comes in from lawn mowing and asks if he can help.
Admit I "need a moment" so he takes over story time.
Put clothes from washer to dryer and start next load.
Unpack my suitcase from vacation.
Hint to Sean to wrap up story/game time as it is 9:10pm!
Kiss boys goodnight.
Pack gym bag for tomorrow's workout.
Remember to not forget Luke's snack's in fridge tomorrow!
Pack my lunch to take to work tomorrow. Don't forget it in fridge tomorrow!
Fall onto couch and turn on some mindless television.
Get ready for bed. Extra night cream on deepening wrinkles.
Did Luke put his tooth under pillow? Close call...that darn tooth fairy almost forgot!
Fall into bed.
Repeat.

And remember to just breathe...

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Man Movies

I was telling Sean about my list of movies I am compelled to watch if I run across them on cable. Clarified these are not my favorite movies (though some are), just ones I am somehow complelled to watch if I run across them. I asked what his must-watch movies would be:

Rear Window
Gattica
Dial M for Murder
The Empire Stikes Back
...you can see why we get along so well :-)

then came:
Terminator
Dracula
Slap Shot
Memento

What? No Pride & Prejudice, Marie Antionette or Dirty Dancing? Oh, that's right, these are Man-Movies.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Movie Weather

Given the days on end of rain we are having, I am suddenly in the mood to see a movie. With two kids, actually getting out to a movie theater just doesn't happen so we end up searching cable, on-demand listings, and sifting through the non-kid DVDs we have (not many there) in order to find something to watch.

Below is a list of ten movies that if I stumble across them playing, I am sucked in and must watch:

1) Rear Window - This is our all-time favorite movie. Bet Sean and I have seen this over 100 times, no exaggeration. We own the DVD so this is our "go to" movie when we need some comfort. Hitchcock at his best. Grace Kelly is stunning and her clothes alone are worth a watch for the ladies. We were fortunate to get to see this on a big screen when we lived in LA and it was amazing how much more detail you could see. All time #1 for me.

2) Marie Antoinette - An odd pick I know. Kirsten Dunst is a great as the 15 year old Austrian royalty married off to the dauphin of France. She is taken aback by the excess and stuffiness of life in Versailles but then ends up neck deep in it (wow, that was a bad pun). The costumes are amazing. I love how Sofia Coppola threw in a pair of Converse high-tops in the shoe shopping scene and how the soundtrack is pure 80s New Wave which creates a very different feel for this period piece.

3) Gattica - This is the futuristic tale of genetic engineering and DNA discrimination. Ethan Hawk,Uma Thurman and Jude Law are great. The story of never giving up no matter what is timeless. The biggest winner here is the cinematography and art direction...simply a beautiful movie to watch. Origin of one of my favorite quotes: "I never saved anything for the swim back."

4) Spy Game - Robert Redford and Brad Pitt. Need I say more? LOL. Well actually I love this movie for the plot and music. Great CIA twister and better when you watch it the second time. Not a movie you run across much in the cable/on-demand listings but worth a watch if you do. The "training montage" song is a regular on my workout playlist.

5) Pride & Prejudice - I usually don't enjoy "stuffy" movies which is the category in which I put this movie when it came out. Just looked boring to me. However after watching it once on cable, I am hooked. Keira Knightly is perfectly cast as Lizzy and that scene where you see Mr. Darcy in his long duster coat striding over the hillside to her in the morning light gives me chills.

6) Dial M for Murder - More Hitchcock with Grace Kelly. Great plot of man who wants his wife murdered for her money but beauty is in the details. Pay close attention or you may miss some important stuff. Again, probably better the second (or 50th) time you see it. The loose remake of it called A Perfect Murder with Michael Douglas and Gweneth Paltrow is decent however no comparison to Hitchcock's version.

7) Wall Street - Yep, Gordon Gekko baby. That scene where Gordon is on the beach talking on that H-U-G-E phone is hilarious! Not to be out done by the over the top decorating Darien does to Bud's new apartment. Once you finish cringing over how cheesy the 80s were, the rest is just pretty good drama.

8) Dirty Dancing - Ok, I admit it. I love watching this movie. Funny thing is that I don't really think it is that GOOD of a movie but yet I get sucked into watching it when I come upon it. Nobody puts Baby in a corner.

9) No Way Out - Maybe I am stuck in the 80s or something. Great suspenseful flick with Kevin Coser caught heading up an FBI manhunt. Watch until the VERY end or you miss the big twist.

10) Star Wars - Lumping these into one but mainly referring to Episode 4 and 5 (the original Star Wars and Empire Strikes Back). To anyone that knows me, this is a no-brainer. Do you think it was by chance our first born was named LUKE?

That is all for today. Kids are napping and there is a pile of laundry with my name on it. Here's hoping I can find one of these on to keep me company.

Monday, September 8, 2008

Who are these people?

My mom has often asked me what are blogs and why would anyone feel the need to write one. In trying to answer her question, I have thought about the different types of bloggers:

The Witty-Observer: One of my favorites, these are folks who with a Jerry Seinfeld-esque style, can talk about their daily happenings in a funny and humorous way that we all can relate to but few can master in writing. Hats off to you.

The Join-the-Causer: There are tons of blogs on people trying to further their cause with this wide-reaching medium. I may not agree with the cause, but cheers for trying.

The Non-Confronter: You know the type...those that can't fathom confrontation so prefer to blog in the safety of cyber-space things they would never have cajones to say in person. Gag.

The Daily-Rambler: These are your everyday folks that just want somewhere to write their thoughts whether anyone is listening or not.

I am probably in that last category since I am not that witty, don't have a cause to market at the moment, and as my family and friends can attest, you may not like what I have to say, but brace yourself because I'm going to say it right to you (and I love you all for tolerating me).

So call me a rambler...I don’t mind if no one is listening. Actually, I may enjoy the solitude.

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Getting old

Ran with my friend Kristin and two of her neighbors yesterday in prep for the KC half marathon. Did six miles along the beautiful Mill Creek Streamway Park/Trail. How is it then that I can be sore like this even after six months of 5-days a week at the gym with cardio and weights?

Then I remember why: see, I am just getting old and my body isn't 25 anymore so gets sore when I do something strenuous. But am I going to go quitely into old age? No way. I am giving it a literal run for its money. Come on old age...catch me if you can.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Is this thing on?

Hello? Is this thing on? Anyone? Anyone?